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  “What I told you about my amnesia is true. But what I didn’t tell you is that I’d remembered you from somewhere. I have these little glimpses of memories, flashes of you I couldn’t explain. You see, Colonel did some digging into my past and found some things out that I’m not very proud of.”

  “Like what?”

  He sighed, rubbed his hands over his face, and leaned back into the sofa. “Like I was a contract killer.”

  She stiffened, but thankfully, didn’t bolt. Brody didn’t want to have to stop her if she tried leaving, but he needed to tell her everything. He couldn’t afford for her to leave without telling her what he could.

  “I don’t know much about that. Like I said, I have no memories of that life, so I’ve been living my life like that never happened. But those ingrained skills do come in handy with my work.”

  “Your work? You’re a mechanic, Brutus. You don’t need to know how to kill someone.

  “Please don’t call me that. I—”

  “I’ll call you whatever the hell I want,” she gritted out. “Now explain what you mean.”

  “Fair enough,” he sighed. “I mean, we do side projects. I led you to believe those projects were related to the garage, but they’re not, not usually anyway. We take on missions from private and government clients, doin’ jobs they either don’t want to do themselves or can’t. I’m not allowed to tell you anything specific, but I will tell you that you were an assignment. At first. That and the fact that I had memories of you were the reasons why I tried to avoid you in the beginning. We were hired to protect you since Marco was up for parole.”

  The color drained out of her face. “The FBI hired you?”

  “Shit, Xan, I’m not allowed to talk about this.” If Colonel knew Brody was spilling their secrets, he’d have his ass. But this was Xan, and he’d answer whatever he could. “But yeah, we have contacts with the FBI.”

  “So you knew about my husband coming after me?”

  “Ex-husband. And we don’t know that. It was my understanding we were hired just to watch over you. I don’t think the FBI knew for a fact Collins was coming for you. But why wouldn’t he? I guess they didn’t have concrete proof at the time, so they did what they could to keep you safe. But I don’t know. I didn’t ask questions. Just did what I was told.”

  “And what were you told?”

  She wasn’t making this easy on him. “You and Scott were to be watched twenty-four-seven, but I was told to stick close to you. In the beginning, I staked out your place, followed you around.” He averted his eyes. “Later, I didn’t have to be so covert to watch out for you.”

  “No wonder you weren’t shocked when I opened myself up to you and told you about my past. You already knew. God, I’m such an idiot.”

  “No, I mean, yes, I knew, but no, you’re not an idiot, baby.” He shifted a little closer to her. “I had a job to do, but I was attracted to you from the very beginning. Once we became involved, the line between my job and my love life became very blurry. Yours and Scott’s safety became a very personal issue for me.”

  “Then why not tell me? Because you knew me from somewhere and were ashamed of your past? Damn you, Brody! I told you I was beaten and raped by the man you’re buddy-buddy with in that picture. How do you expect me to feel about that?”

  “After we became involved, I learned of a possible connection to Collins, and I’ve been investigating it. Until you brought this picture here, I haven’t been able to find anything concrete linking me to him.”

  “Why would you? If you were a killer working for him, I’m sure you didn’t leave a bunch of evidence lying around. You should have told me this. Why bother trying to verify it first?” she yelled, jumping to her feet, and Brody jumped up too.

  “Because I love you, and it scares the shit out of me that I could’ve done something to hurt you!”

  She stared back at him, working her mouth as if she was trying to speak. “You love me?”

  Oh shit. He hadn’t meant to blurt that out. He’d been trying to keep a lid on his feelings until he knew he was free to love her without worrying if he was the one who’d killed her daughter. Up until she’d shown up here with that photo, he was starting to believe that maybe Colonel had gotten his information wrong—their intel wasn’t always foolproof when dealing with unsavory characters—and that the baby had actually died of SIDS. He took a step toward her. “Yes, I—”

  “Don’t.” She lifted her gun to halt his progression and took a step back. “Just stay where you are. I-I need to think about this.”

  Instead of retreating, he sat on the couch where he’d been standing. If she sat back down, at least they’d be a little closer. He steepled his hands over his mouth and watched her, waiting. He knew this was a lot for her to take in and he had to give her time, but he’d give anything to be able to pull her into his arms without her freaking out.

  “Let me make sure I’m clear here. You work with the FBI, but you were a contract killer who worked for my ex-husband. And you expect me to believe that you had no idea who I was when I moved to town?”

  “I didn’t say that. I said I didn’t know of my possible connection to Collins until after we became involved. The moment I saw you, I recognized you from somewhere but couldn’t place you. I was informed of our responsibility to watch out for you after we met.”

  “I see. And what are you not telling me?” Her eyes narrowed.

  Oh fuck. He swallowed. “I, er, Colonel told me something about our past I’ve been trying to confirm one way or the other.” He shut his eyes because he just couldn’t look at her and see the disgust on her face when he spilled the rest of this. “He, um, told me I knew you because Collins had hired me to kill your kid.”

  She gasped and his eyes flew open. “What the fuck? Marco wanted Scott dead?” She backed away, shaking her head. “Why? He wanted a son to begin with. Th-that doesn’t make sense.”

  “Not Scott,” he breathed.

  Xan’s brow furrowed in confusion, then her eyes slowly opened wide as the color drained from her face and she wobbled on her feet. He started to get up, but she grasped the side of the couch, dropping that photo. “No.” She shook her head. “She, she died of SIDS. I-I saw the autopsy report.” Her voice cracked as she fought not to cry.

  “Xan.” He stood slowly.

  Her trembling hand covered her mouth and she whispered, “Are you telling me you killed my baby?”

  That was it. He couldn’t take it anymore. He stepped over to her and clutched her arms. “I don’t know. God, Xan, I don’t know. After I found out, I tried staying away from you, but I couldn’t. And I’ve been doing my damnedest to find some answers. I don’t want it to be true.”

  And then she wailed—a sound that’d haunt him until the day he died—and beat her weak little fist against his chest as she screamed and cried. The force of her blows not enough to hurt him physically, but he felt each strike clear to his soul. And because she didn’t try to pull away from him, Brody held on to her arms and let her take out her pain on him.

  “I’m sorry, so sorry,” he murmured over and over, and she finally stopped her assault and collapsed into his arms, bawling. He held her and stroked her hair, whispering his apologies over and over. Long moments later, she finally relaxed into his embrace, and he squeezed her tighter. He’d give anything to take her pain away.

  Then she seemed to remember what he was apologizing for because she pushed him away and took several steps back, heading for the door. “Stay the hell away from me,” she croaked as she waved her gun at him. “Don’t come to my house, don’t call me, don’t you fucking drive down my road.”

  He followed her. “Xan, you have every right to be—”

  “Don’t say another word! You killed my baby. You. The man I…the man I’ve been sleeping with. You better pray we don’t run into each other again because I’ll kill you. And that’s not some idle threat.”

  She stomped out of his house, slammed the door, and fired up
that rusty old car of hers, and he just sat back down and stared at the floor where the photo of him and Collins had landed. He bent over and picked it up, staring at it with burning eyes. He blinked a few times and felt a suspicious wetness trail down his cheek. The last time he’d cried, he’d been drunk off his ass.

  Now he just had a hole in his chest.

  He took a deep breath. He knew his relationship with Xan was going to end sometime and he couldn’t dwell on what he’d lost because he still had a job to do. The fact his heart was splitting didn’t matter. He couldn’t do anything for her if he let his emotions consume him. Clearing his throat, Brody got up and grabbed his phone. He dialed first Blade and then Gauge, asking them both to meet him at Colonel’s house. They were both grumpy being woken up so early, but neither complained about helping him. He had a major problem to contend with and he needed help. Someone had left a photo where Xan could find it, and the reason could not be good—either Collins’ men were closing in on her, or someone wanted her to think that.

  It was time to bring the boss man up to speed.

  “Jesus, Brody, you do know what time it is, don’t you? What if I was curled up next to a lovely lady all nice and sweet-like in my bed?” Blade asked, sipping his coffee as he leaned against his truck parked outside of Colonel’s house.

  Brody could’ve retorted with some macho comeback about how Blade never brought women home, but he wasn’t in the mood for banter. Instead, he shut his truck door and walked toward Blade. “I called Colonel on the way over here. He’s expecting us,” Brody said as Gauge pulled in behind him. Thankfully, Gauge just nodded without bitching about the hour, and they all walked up to Colonel’s door. He opened it before they got a chance to knock.

  “If y’all are done pussyfooting around out there, get in here and tell me what’s so damn important it couldn’t wait.”

  Colonel didn’t wait for a response. He turned and stalked toward his living room, and Brody and the other guys followed. After Colonel served up some coffee and they all took seats, Brody brought Colonel up to speed on everything. His research into Xan’s past agents and any possible people who’d sell her out to Collins, leaving out the two undercover agents who’d already been excluded—no need to divulge that information. Colonel sat quietly, listening, but Brody could tell his lack of comments wasn’t a good sign. Oh yeah, Colonel was definitely not happy.

  “Why am I just now finding out about this?” he exploded.

  “Because we haven’t found anything conclusive on Jeff Coleman or Dave Simmons,” Brody said. “Plus, Dale Adams is still lurking around, and we don’t know how he fits into this either.”

  Colonel let rip a litany of curses as he stood and paced, and Brody waited him out. No need to piss his boss off even more. Finally, he faced Brody. “Why’d you tell me now? If you’ve been keeping this from me then something must’ve changed for you to be singing like a little fuckin’ bird all of a sudden.”

  Brody reached behind him and pulled out an envelope he’d stuffed in the back of his jeans and under his shirt. Then he handed it to his boss. “Someone sent this to Xan or left it for her where she’d find it. I’m not sure. I didn’t get a chance to ask.”

  Colonel yanked the photo away from Brody and scowled. “I see.”

  “What is it?” Blade asked, bobbing his head to the side to get a look.

  Colonel passed it to Blade. “A picture of Brutus with Marco Collins.”

  “What?” Blade’s eyes got twice as big as he took the photo. “No fuckin’ way,” he breathed.

  Gauge whistled. “Not good, man,” he said as he leaned over and looked at the picture while Blade held on to it.

  “I know,” Brody sighed, glancing back at Colonel. “You see the problem here? Either Collins is on to her or someone wants her to think he is.”

  “Or someone is really handy dandy with Photoshop, man, and wants to cause you some trouble,” Blade said.

  “Doubtful,” Gauge argued. “They’d have to know about his past for that to be the case, which would seriously limit the suspect pool.”

  “Only the guys at the shop know about me,” Brody said, picking up his cup of coffee for the first time and sipping. He hadn’t considered the possibility of someone trying to sabotage his credibility with Xan. Even if that was the case, it didn’t make that picture a fake.

  “Son, do you honestly think the FBI doesn’t have a bead on you? I’ve been accepting contracts from them for years. We may hit dead ends when looking into your past, but I’d bet my life the feds know how often you take a shit now and could compare it to how often you did before your accident.”

  And that was true too. Brody’d tried every avenue to find out about his past once he knew he could do it without drawing unwanted attention to himself. He hadn’t had much luck, but Colonel had found some old connections who’d pieced some of the information together. And when he’d tried getting info from the feds, he hit a brick wall. So it’d make sense that they wouldn’t mind knowing everything about him without sharing.

  “You have a point, boss, but what about Xan? And Scott? They’re not safe. Someone got close enough to her to leave that photo.”

  Colonel pulled out his cell phone and dialed a number. “Hunter had night watch,” he said to Brody, and then into the phone “Where are you?” He pulled his cell phone away and fumbled with it to put it on speaker so everyone could hear.

  “Lost him and just got back. Xan Bradley was MIA when I returned.”

  “Repeat that, Hunter.”

  “Followed suspicious vehicle leaving the Bradley house shortly after oh-four-hundred. Lost him and just got back. Xan isn’t here.”

  “Description?” Brody barked.

  “Black SUV. Called Bear with tags, and he ran them. Vehicle was stolen.”

  Shit, this wasn’t good.

  “Stay at her house.” Then to Brody, “Do you know where she could be?”

  “She was upset when she left my house this morning. Hunter had reported that Scott was staying over at a friend’s house, so she could be anywhere.”

  “I’ll call Roc to scope out the town to find her,” Colonel said into the phone.

  Brody growled. He still was pissed at Roc for his behavior, and he didn’t care if Colonel knew it. His boss’s gaze cut to him and he shook his head in warning. Fuck that. Roc had been an even bigger asshole lately. It seemed like the more time Brody had spent with Xan, Roc got more irritated. Brody hadn’t lashed out since he’d only been around him at the shop, but what Brody wouldn’t give to find that punk in a dark alley. “You tell him not to engage if he finds her,” he spat.

  Colonel sighed, but nodded. “Report back, Hunter, if you see anything out of the ordinary or if Xan returns.”

  “Got it.”

  Colonel killed the call and looked at the men in his living room. “I’ll contact the feds and see what they know, but I have to be careful because I have a bad feeling about this. We were pulled on the case as soon as her ass showed up in town, then Adams pops up here, now this. Collins is good, but this is fast work even for him. I think he still has a man on the inside.”

  “You don’t think it’s a former agent?” Gauge asked, scooting to the edge of his seat.

  “Hell, with deep pockets, it could be a combination of past agents, current feds, and even plants in this town. He could’ve orchestrated her every move and identity change for all we know. Bottom line, she’s in danger.”

  But Brody would kill anybody, fed or not, who so much as touched her.

  Xan drove around town aimlessly, trying to get a handle on her emotions. She’d cried until she couldn’t cry anymore and then she’d called Jack. Of course he’d freaked about her leaving and lectured her about not staying put like he’d ordered, and when she told him where she’d been and that she’d left the damning photo at Brody’s house, he’d really lost it. She knew it was dangerous confronting Brody, but she was shocked and pissed and upset and had gone through those emotions over and
over in the last hour, in no certain order. Jack wasn’t a woman scorned, so he didn’t understand her logic, but said he’d take care of it, whatever that meant.

  When she finally pulled into her driveway, she couldn’t go in. She knew if she did, she’d be cooking up a storm. She didn’t want to be alone with her thoughts anymore, so she killed the engine, stowed the gun in the glove box, and walked over to Roxie’s house, hoping she’d be up and have coffee made. Xan knocked on the door and her neighbor opened it a few minutes later with a concerned look on her face.

  “Hey, girl. Everything all right?” She tugged her robe closer to her body and smoothed her bed-rumpled hair.

  “Sorry I woke you—”

  “No, no. I was awake. Just bein’ lazy, you know. Readin’ in bed with some yummy coffee. Wanna cup?” she asked as she stepped aside and let Xan in.

  “Sure. I take it the boys are still asleep.”

  “Um, Chad is, but—hey, have you been cryin’?”

  “Long story,” Xan sighed, knowing she’d have to tell Roxie everything, but actually feeling a little lighter knowing she’d get to vent her feelings, rather than leaving them all bottled up to fester. At this rate, they’d eat her insides. “What about Scott? Surely he’s not up?” She almost chuckled at that ridiculous thought.

  Roxie furrowed her brow. “I don’t know. He’s not here, hon.”

  Xan froze. “What do you mean, ‘he’s not here’?”

  “I went to bed early last night while the boys were playin’ video games. When I got up around two this morning to make sure they’d turned off the TV, Chad was in bed and Scott wasn’t here. I figured he went home last night when they got through.”

  Oh God! Xan took off in a sprint. She bolted out the door, across Roxie’s yard and into hers. She never thought their houses were so far apart until this very moment.